I am selfish for myself.
Been having nightmares
When day dreams
Creep their way in
Side of my mind
Wanders and I start to lack sleep
A wave of insomnia
Blankets over me
The comfort causes shivers
In cold sweat
That I can’t control
A fever drenched
In kerosene
While the fuse is tied
Tight to my throat
Tugging out further and
Further until my head is out
The window
And with the sunrise
It sparks the fuse.
I wake up
Not knowing what time of day
Or if it was all my imagination
That I even slipped
In between my covers
Trying to avoid
What daylight day dreams
I’ll continue to ponder
Wondering what time
I have left
To do what I believe is right
As the seconds keep ticking,
Ticking, ticking, silence.